It's been nearly two weeks, the worst two weeks of my life. I litterally feel nothing anymore, nothing but emptiness.
Who would have thought someone so young and small could hurt me.
People say these things are ment to help you, but it's only let me see how she feels.
She is doing ok again and I want her to be happy.
I use to take "I'll always love you." for granted, now I wish I could even hear you say "hello" again.
I hope this isn't how you felt when we broke up before cause this pain............ this pain shouldn't be felt by anyone, all I wanna see is your name everytime I sign in but you never seem to be on, and if you are then I just missed you.
Hope you're ok, I'm not but sure who cares.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
This day would always come.
She ended it, the hopes, the dreams, the want, the love. She was my everything and I let her go.
I tried to fight for her and at times it worked but she chose her parents in the end. My heart is broken, I will never love someone as I have loved her, I won't let myself.
Why put myself out there and go to the end of the earth for one person? Beacuse I love them? What if they don't love me back? What if the can't love me back?
I wanted to make you happy and I ment everyword I said but it's still not good enough, the reason for my being has come to an end, everything is dim and grey, nothing taste the same, nothing feels the same. I can't feel anything.
I wanted to grow old with you, I gave you my heart and you threw it aside for the fear it might hurt you, I was afraid too. There is always two people and my greatest fear happened, I lost you.
I fell for you the day you sat across from me, now it feels I will never be able to get lost in those beautiful eyes that once brought me into worlds I could only dream of, I can no longer feel the warmth of your heart on me when I am in need of your love. No longer can I wake up to a brighter and better life for you aren't there anymore.
Your parents and friends took you from me, it's not fair. I found out your father hated me which wasn't a surprise. I was told tonight to forget you and not worry. But how do you forget happiness? How do you not worry about love?
It was a mistake treating you so bad that all this had to happen, I only wanted to love you. Looking back on it I didn't deserve a second chance nor a first, how you even talked to me is a surprise. You will do many great things and meet new and intersting people, you will find a man who doesn't deserve you because you are too good for him, you will make him happy and grow old together raising wonderful kids, you will teach them of your life lessons and ready them for the world they face ahead,where you will have no regrets, only memories and thats all I will be to you, thats all i ever was, a memory.
I tried to fight for her and at times it worked but she chose her parents in the end. My heart is broken, I will never love someone as I have loved her, I won't let myself.
Why put myself out there and go to the end of the earth for one person? Beacuse I love them? What if they don't love me back? What if the can't love me back?
I wanted to make you happy and I ment everyword I said but it's still not good enough, the reason for my being has come to an end, everything is dim and grey, nothing taste the same, nothing feels the same. I can't feel anything.
I wanted to grow old with you, I gave you my heart and you threw it aside for the fear it might hurt you, I was afraid too. There is always two people and my greatest fear happened, I lost you.
I fell for you the day you sat across from me, now it feels I will never be able to get lost in those beautiful eyes that once brought me into worlds I could only dream of, I can no longer feel the warmth of your heart on me when I am in need of your love. No longer can I wake up to a brighter and better life for you aren't there anymore.
Your parents and friends took you from me, it's not fair. I found out your father hated me which wasn't a surprise. I was told tonight to forget you and not worry. But how do you forget happiness? How do you not worry about love?
It was a mistake treating you so bad that all this had to happen, I only wanted to love you. Looking back on it I didn't deserve a second chance nor a first, how you even talked to me is a surprise. You will do many great things and meet new and intersting people, you will find a man who doesn't deserve you because you are too good for him, you will make him happy and grow old together raising wonderful kids, you will teach them of your life lessons and ready them for the world they face ahead,where you will have no regrets, only memories and thats all I will be to you, thats all i ever was, a memory.
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